Can pivotal moments change lives? In an instant can you turn from despair to hope?
For me the answer is YES definitely! Like so many people 2016 was a very tough year! Hanging on by the fingertips emotionally, I felt challenged on so many levels. To the point where I had no energy to continue writing my second book. Each day seemed a challenge. While I believed I had healed pretty well from a traumatic past, I discovered I had to dig even deeper to make peace with past memories that had been triggered by certain events early in 2016. The natural world enabled me to touch the inner silence and acknowledge that any resistance on my part to unresolved pain would only hold me back.
When the opportunity presented itself to share in the journey of 365 Life Shifts I said YES! While still feeling emotionally depleted I realised I had been offered a lifeboat in turbulent seas. Passionate about sharing the beauty and wonder of this world I knew my story offered hope to others. Hope to me is the sunshine of the soul. Supported lovingly by Facebook friends, writers Jodi Chapman and Dan Teck, I was excited and blessed to share my story of a pivotal moment that changed my thought-form enabling me to heal and thrive.
A little of my story : Finding myself a widow at 47 years old, I felt empty and broken. Mirrors taunted me with that emptiness until I found the courage to take responsibility for my own pain. In that painful and precious momentof truly facing myself, hope swelled in my heart, hope of living fully and reconnecting with my true nature.Yes it did take time to heal, however once I made the decision to take responsibility for my own pain many teachers and guides crossed my path. My totem Crow, whom I write about in my book Triumph of Joy, reminded me to see the past as a teacher; the present as the place of creativity; and the future as a place of inspiration.
Rather than feeling overwhelmed and disappointed that I had achieved very little in 2016, I had February 21 st 2017 to look forward too! Today I share this sacred place with other wonderful contributors as we cross continents and share stories heart to heart to bring hope and inspiration to a world in need of hope and tenderness.
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For many of us, self judgement blocks us from our true essence. Often we compare ourselves to others and then feel we fall short. Finding the true reason for self judgement enables us to free ourselves from often long established patterns. It was during my healing journey I finally faced up to feeling less than… Growing up with a father who had a brilliant memory left me feeling I wasn’t too bright. At school rote learning was valued highly and a creative mind less so. With a very creative mind and a strong sense of adventure I thrived on an outdoor life.
It was not until I focused on “healing “after years of supporting my mentally ill husband that I found the courage to look in the mirror . As a carer I had lost contact with who I was, my mirror reflected that emptiness. To heal I focused on letting go of self judgement as I leant to honour myself. During this time I read Socrates words “ Wisest is he who know he knows not. ” The impact of those words was immediate as I realised I didn’t need to have an encyclopedic knowledge of the world ! Once the door was open to discover my gifts I never looked back. It was time to honour my creative mind. My lessons I recognised came through personal experience, storytelling and feelings. Once I acknowledged my personal truth I embraced my creative mind that travels like the speed of light at times ! Accepting and honouring my strengths freed me to soar like Eagle above the self limitation I had imposed on myself.
Recent Review of Triumph of Joy ~ S. Myerson November 8, 2016
This memoir is written from the depths of anguish as the author struggles to reclaim her passion for life and her sense of self after personal tragedy. The journey is victorious and joy ultimately prevails; we are right there with Pauline Robinson every step of the way. She is a lovely writer, with a keen talent for describing the spiritual gifts that nature brings to those that grieve. Anyone familiar with the wreckage that PTSD inflicts on those who have served and their families, will want to read this and share it. “Triumph of Joy” provides a path through a terrible storm.
Coming soon… the 3rd book in the #No 1 Best Seller 365 Series 365 Life Shifts
What if the veil between self belief and self doubt was as fine as gossamer?
As we struggle with self doubt , we often feel weighted down and unmotivated. In our heart we know that we have so much to give of our true self, yet things may not have unfolded in life the way we had hoped. Self doubt then blocks us from our own light. What if the veil between self doubt and self belief is as fine as a ray of light? That it could evaporate suddenly leaving us feeling uplifted again? Just like clouds hide the sun’s brilliant rays, self belief is shining brightly behind our cloud of self doubt. We are that beautiful light waiting to shine when we remain open to life experiences, even at the darkest moments. It is often in those dark moments when we are feeling depleted, when we have almost give up on following our hearts longing, that magic can happen.Remaining opening to all that life offers, saying yes to opportunities even when in doubt can enable us to shine as brightly as the living promise of who we are.
Like many people this year I have experienced an emotional tsunami. Feeling drained and spent I was contacted to be interviewed by Sheri Myers from The Glitch Movie. Fortunately I said Yes even though my self belief was diminished I wished to remain open to life’s magic. Emotional exhaustion can leave us deleted, yet behind that exhaustion lies the living promise that pulses strongly in all hearts. To my delight I was guided beautifully by Sheri in our interview as her belief in me radiated warmth and joy. Stepping out of our own way and seeing ourselves through the eyes of another is like the sun returning after a bleak winter.
As I shared my story with Sheri I realised that we all love to hear about people who have overcome pain and trauma. Once again I came to believe my life experiences had the power to plant a seed of hope in the heart of another. To buy a copy of Triumph of Joy
Can we continue to sow seeds of love when we are feeling depleted within ourselves?
At times in our life we wonder how we can rise above the challenges that face us. We may feel so emotionally depleted it is difficult to recognise the beauty and wonder of life. For myself it comes down to our willingness to change our mindset. If we are not able to sift our focus within ourselves then the outside world contains endless examples of willingness that can inspire us.
This lone flower demonstrates its willingness to survive within concrete. As I observed this tiny flower on my morning walk ,I thought that it must be a struggle to survive in such harsh conditions. Then I realised that although it was surrounded by concrete its roots were being nurtured because they were firmly within the embrace of Mother Earth. So too we are essentially nurtured by Mother Earth, the sun rises each day to give us light and sets to enable us to rest.
A wonderful example of willingness took place on a train trip. Our train was stopped by a large tree branch across the track. Buses were to replace the train which meant a much longer trip to Sydney. Lots of passengers mumbled and grumbled about the delays. Accepting the changes I walked onto the platform to wait. Before long I noticed a lady with a small group surrounding her. Curious about what was happening I joined the small group and discovered they were watching the lady paint. Later when I chatted to the lady she explained to me that the reason she and her teenage son were on the train was because he had refused to board the plane they had booked for their trip to Brisbane. Her special needs son disliked crowds so the mother thought a train cabin was the best option. The family was returning to Brisbane where the recent bushfires had destroyed their home. As her son was sleeping the mum ( A portrait artist ) decided to make the most of the delay and paint the portrait of two passengers.The elderly woman in the picture loved it so much she bought the painting. As she did so the elderly lady explained she had just returned from overseas where she had her portrait painted in Paris. Sadly she left that portrait on a train. The elderly lady went on to say that she loved the picture painted by the lady at the station so much more than the portrait she had lost.
Not only was I inspired by the willingness of this amazing artist to make the most of the situation, I felt honoured and enriched by the experience. Seeds of love and respect were planted on a railway platform that day as strangers laughed and shared stories. No one noticed the delay rather we all focused on enjoying the moment.
When you plant seeds of love, it’s you that blossoms. ~ Ma Jay Sati Bhagauati
How beautiful is the light that shines on this lovely flower . While the flower alone is quite stunning, the light that shines on it adds another dimension to that beauty as it emphasises the richness and structure of each individual part of the whole.
In our own lives we reflect our light to the world, as times that light might seem dim to you , however the richness and depth of that light always remains, even if we do not see it. The beauty of who you are when you open to your true nature ; warms and nurture’s those around you. The gleam in your eye, the brightness of your presence may give strength and hope to another. The love and light you are touches everything around you .
“A candle loses none of its light by lighting another “~ Rumi
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” Quote from Rumi .
Rumi’s words are timeless. They sing fragrant truths to the heart. Once I no longer saw myself as a victim my wounds were able to be opened to the light. In allowing myself to be vulnerable by touching on the deepest part of that pain, I began to heal. Those wounds that once made me feel broken are now filled with truths light which I share with others.