Can pivotal moments change lives? In an instant can you turn from despair to hope?
For me the answer is YES definitely! Like so many people 2016 was a very tough year! Hanging on by the fingertips emotionally, I felt challenged on so many levels. To the point where I had no energy to continue writing my second book. Each day seemed a challenge. While I believed I had healed pretty well from a traumatic past, I discovered I had to dig even deeper to make peace with past memories that had been triggered by certain events early in 2016. The natural world enabled me to touch the inner silence and acknowledge that any resistance on my part to unresolved pain would only hold me back.
When the opportunity presented itself to share in the journey of 365 Life Shifts I said YES! While still feeling emotionally depleted I realised I had been offered a lifeboat in turbulent seas. Passionate about sharing the beauty and wonder of this world I knew my story offered hope to others. Hope to me is the sunshine of the soul. Supported lovingly by Facebook friends, writers Jodi Chapman and Dan Teck, I was excited and blessed to share my story of a pivotal moment that changed my thought-form enabling me to heal and thrive.
A little of my story : Finding myself a widow at 47 years old, I felt empty and broken. Mirrors taunted me with that emptiness until I found the courage to take responsibility for my own pain. In that painful and precious momentof truly facing myself, hope swelled in my heart, hope of living fully and reconnecting with my true nature.Yes it did take time to heal, however once I made the decision to take responsibility for my own pain many teachers and guides crossed my path. My totem Crow, whom I write about in my book Triumph of Joy, reminded me to see the past as a teacher; the present as the place of creativity; and the future as a place of inspiration.
Rather than feeling overwhelmed and disappointed that I had achieved very little in 2016, I had February 21 st 2017 to look forward too! Today I share this sacred place with other wonderful contributors as we cross continents and share stories heart to heart to bring hope and inspiration to a world in need of hope and tenderness.
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Do you believe in EARTH ANGELS ? Earth Angels are often people who cross your path for just a moment in time, but in that short moment they leave an imprint on your heart.
It was NEW YEARS EVE and I was going to celebrate with a friend at her home in one of my favourite places – Cronulla Beach. As I waited at the bus stop I thought about the year to come. Each year I knew the right calender would find me. And it did ! Tranquility was just what I needed in 2017. Such a lovely word tranquility... it sounds so calming you can almost float on the energy it conveys of peace, quiteness, stillness… After an emotionally turblant year I was happy to see the back of 2016… yes tranquility felt good ~ it is my publishing name after all.
The insight I had gained of self was all the memory I wished to remember of 2016. Checking to see if the bus was coming over the hill I noticed an elderly lady making her way to the bus stop. Her cane followed the footpath closely, guiding her to her destination. We exchanged greeting as the lady settled beside me. Behind her sunglasses I noticed her left eye remained closed ~ damaged I wondered ? Once settled she asked me where I was heading. We chatted for a while and then she said “You need to show your true colours in 2017…” A little surprised I thanked her for her message. “Do you follow astrology?” I asked her. “No” she replied gently in a matter of fact way ” I just know things, I always have! I worked as a councilor and hynothripst for many years. I love being out and travel to the Blue Mountains regulary to spend time at a centre for young people with disabilities. We chatted until the bus arrived. ” I am not just a blind old lady ! “she told me as we parted. “My name is Jill. Remember to show your true colours .. ! ”
Peacock magic I knew was about showing you true self to the world. For years a peacock had visited my daughters horse paddock. One time when Mr Peacock ( as we named him) came to visit he had almost finished molting. To my delight his last two beautiful feathers dropped close to me before he walked away. It’s not always easy to show your true self especailly when you are processing deep pain. What I did manage to do in 2016 was say yes to a few invitations when I was still feeling emotinally depleted. That yes has carried me forward on a positive note into the New Year. Click on link to see more about the symbolic meaning of peacock Symbol of peacock
My yes in 2016 enabled me to be able to share with you that I am a contributing author to #365LiftsShifts available on 22nd Feb 2017. This beautiful book shares moments that changed lives in a postive and powerful way.
May 2017 be filled with joy and may the year unfold with ease and grace.
DON’T FORGET TO SHOW YOUR TRUE BEAUTY TO THE WORLD
For many of us, self judgement blocks us from our true essence. Often we compare ourselves to others and then feel we fall short. Finding the true reason for self judgement enables us to free ourselves from often long established patterns. It was during my healing journey I finally faced up to feeling less than… Growing up with a father who had a brilliant memory left me feeling I wasn’t too bright. At school rote learning was valued highly and a creative mind less so. With a very creative mind and a strong sense of adventure I thrived on an outdoor life.
It was not until I focused on “healing “after years of supporting my mentally ill husband that I found the courage to look in the mirror . As a carer I had lost contact with who I was, my mirror reflected that emptiness. To heal I focused on letting go of self judgement as I leant to honour myself. During this time I read Socrates words “ Wisest is he who know he knows not. ” The impact of those words was immediate as I realised I didn’t need to have an encyclopedic knowledge of the world ! Once the door was open to discover my gifts I never looked back. It was time to honour my creative mind. My lessons I recognised came through personal experience, storytelling and feelings. Once I acknowledged my personal truth I embraced my creative mind that travels like the speed of light at times ! Accepting and honouring my strengths freed me to soar like Eagle above the self limitation I had imposed on myself.
Recent Review of Triumph of Joy ~ S. Myerson November 8, 2016
This memoir is written from the depths of anguish as the author struggles to reclaim her passion for life and her sense of self after personal tragedy. The journey is victorious and joy ultimately prevails; we are right there with Pauline Robinson every step of the way. She is a lovely writer, with a keen talent for describing the spiritual gifts that nature brings to those that grieve. Anyone familiar with the wreckage that PTSD inflicts on those who have served and their families, will want to read this and share it. “Triumph of Joy” provides a path through a terrible storm.
Coming soon… the 3rd book in the #No 1 Best Seller 365 Series 365 Life Shifts
Can we continue to sow seeds of love when we are feeling depleted within ourselves?
At times in our life we wonder how we can rise above the challenges that face us. We may feel so emotionally depleted it is difficult to recognise the beauty and wonder of life. For myself it comes down to our willingness to change our mindset. If we are not able to sift our focus within ourselves then the outside world contains endless examples of willingness that can inspire us.
This lone flower demonstrates its willingness to survive within concrete. As I observed this tiny flower on my morning walk ,I thought that it must be a struggle to survive in such harsh conditions. Then I realised that although it was surrounded by concrete its roots were being nurtured because they were firmly within the embrace of Mother Earth. So too we are essentially nurtured by Mother Earth, the sun rises each day to give us light and sets to enable us to rest.
A wonderful example of willingness took place on a train trip. Our train was stopped by a large tree branch across the track. Buses were to replace the train which meant a much longer trip to Sydney. Lots of passengers mumbled and grumbled about the delays. Accepting the changes I walked onto the platform to wait. Before long I noticed a lady with a small group surrounding her. Curious about what was happening I joined the small group and discovered they were watching the lady paint. Later when I chatted to the lady she explained to me that the reason she and her teenage son were on the train was because he had refused to board the plane they had booked for their trip to Brisbane. Her special needs son disliked crowds so the mother thought a train cabin was the best option. The family was returning to Brisbane where the recent bushfires had destroyed their home. As her son was sleeping the mum ( A portrait artist ) decided to make the most of the delay and paint the portrait of two passengers.The elderly woman in the picture loved it so much she bought the painting. As she did so the elderly lady explained she had just returned from overseas where she had her portrait painted in Paris. Sadly she left that portrait on a train. The elderly lady went on to say that she loved the picture painted by the lady at the station so much more than the portrait she had lost.
Not only was I inspired by the willingness of this amazing artist to make the most of the situation, I felt honoured and enriched by the experience. Seeds of love and respect were planted on a railway platform that day as strangers laughed and shared stories. No one noticed the delay rather we all focused on enjoying the moment.
When you plant seeds of love, it’s you that blossoms. ~ Ma Jay Sati Bhagauati
At times we may feel lost and disconnected. Like a cloud floating endlessly across an expansive sky. So how do we come back into the moment, into alignment?
My practice if I wish to change my sense of disconnection is to shift my focus outside myself. Focusing on bringing light to the self doubt that is clouding my soul.
Going for a walk immediately shifts my focus to the universal energy of the natural world.There is a special place I visit to make peace with what is. One such morning, sitting on a sandstone ledge, surrounded by bright yellow Grevillea flowers I stilled my mind to release what was troubling me. At the time as a new writer, my confidence and self belief often slipped away, like the tide retreating at the water’s edge. Seeing myself as a real Author although I had received wonderful reviews for my book http://triumphofjoy.com/ was a real challenge. Embracing others kind words about my writing meant stepping into a new reality.
As I contemplated what writing meant to me, I noticed a bee had landed on a nearby Grevillea flower. As I watched the bee I noticed the tiny creature conducted its business without any uncertainty. I thought to myself ~a bee knows how to be a bee. This tiny bee is being of service to the world. Not only is pollen food for the bee, but some of the pollen drops in flight, which allows cross pollination to take place, benefiting both the plant and the insect. This process of sharing is known as .Symbiosis
In that instance my spirits rose as I realised as a writer my words are the sweet nectar of my soul. The tiny bee was showing me just as it sourced nectar for itself it also benefited others. Something I was aching to … be of service.That morning I refocused on the healing power I find in words and how they may benefit others.
I thanked the little bee for enabling me to realise that as a writer words are the nectar of my soul.
At times the natural world invites us to connect deeply with a living creature who can support us on life’s journey ! Penguin the Magpie is such a creature.
The story of Penguin the Magpie captured my heart on Instagram immediately because of my love of birds and because the bird trible come to me when I was in need of healing.
This wonderful book tells a beautiful story about an injured baby magpie who fell out of its nest and was rescued by a loving family.”Penguin” the magpie survived to became an important part of the Bloom’s life and in turn rescued a family in need of hope. Initially I followed Penguin’s story through the brilliant photos of Cameron Bloom on Instagram. Like so many I loved seeing Penguin with the family. When this wonderful story became a book I knew immediately I had to buy a copy. It was a privilege to read such a wonderfully written, heartfelt story, with images that dance instantly into the heart and mind.
The natural world is a wonderful teacher if we take the time to listen. When I was in depair and struggling to write my book Triumph of Joy, a Pelican came to me as I stood high on a cliff face overlooking the ocean. The Pelican circled above me time and time again. Each time the Pelican circled closer to me I clapped in delight ! On this final flight I thanked Pelican for the joy and majesty of his flight. So close was he on his final flight, I could have touched him. It was then the Pelican looked me directly in the eye. In that precious moment the Pelican and I were one. Enchanted by our connection I knew instantly the Pelican was to be the totem for my healing journey. Pelican is seen to represent ~ Rising above life’s trials. It is not the trial in life that is significant; but how we rise above that trial that really matters.
Each time I was ready to give up writing or felt weighted down with self doubt, a Pelican would appear regardless of where I was at the time.The cover of my book is in honour of my beautiful friend who supported me on my healing journey.
I encouage you to read Penguin Bloom a forever story of family love, hope and joy.