For many of us, self judgement blocks us from our true essence. Often we compare ourselves to others and then feel we fall short. Finding the true reason for self judgement enables us to free ourselves from often long established patterns. It was during my healing journey I finally faced up to feeling less than… Growing up with a father who had a brilliant memory left me feeling I wasn’t too bright. At school rote learning was valued highly and a creative mind less so. With a very creative mind and a strong sense of adventure I thrived on an outdoor life.
It was not until I focused on “healing “after years of supporting my mentally ill husband that I found the courage to look in the mirror . As a carer I had lost contact with who I was, my mirror reflected that emptiness. To heal I focused on letting go of self judgement as I leant to honour myself. During this time I read Socrates words “ Wisest is he who know he knows not. ” The impact of those words was immediate as I realised I didn’t need to have an encyclopedic knowledge of the world ! Once the door was open to discover my gifts I never looked back. It was time to honour my creative mind. My lessons I recognised came through personal experience, storytelling and feelings. Once I acknowledged my personal truth I embraced my creative mind that travels like the speed of light at times ! Accepting and honouring my strengths freed me to soar like Eagle above the self limitation I had imposed on myself.
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Can we continue to sow seeds of love when we are feeling depleted within ourselves?
At times in our life we wonder how we can rise above the challenges that face us. We may feel so emotionally depleted it is difficult to recognise the beauty and wonder of life. For myself it comes down to our willingness to change our mindset. If we are not able to sift our focus within ourselves then the outside world contains endless examples of willingness that can inspire us.
This lone flower demonstrates its willingness to survive within concrete. As I observed this tiny flower on my morning walk ,I thought that it must be a struggle to survive in such harsh conditions. Then I realised that although it was surrounded by concrete its roots were being nurtured because they were firmly within the embrace of Mother Earth. So too we are essentially nurtured by Mother Earth, the sun rises each day to give us light and sets to enable us to rest.
A wonderful example of willingness took place on a train trip. Our train was stopped by a large tree branch across the track. Buses were to replace the train which meant a much longer trip to Sydney. Lots of passengers mumbled and grumbled about the delays. Accepting the changes I walked onto the platform to wait. Before long I noticed a lady with a small group surrounding her. Curious about what was happening I joined the small group and discovered they were watching the lady paint. Later when I chatted to the lady she explained to me that the reason she and her teenage son were on the train was because he had refused to board the plane they had booked for their trip to Brisbane. Her special needs son disliked crowds so the mother thought a train cabin was the best option. The family was returning to Brisbane where the recent bushfires had destroyed their home. As her son was sleeping the mum ( A portrait artist ) decided to make the most of the delay and paint the portrait of two passengers.The elderly woman in the picture loved it so much she bought the painting. As she did so the elderly lady explained she had just returned from overseas where she had her portrait painted in Paris. Sadly she left that portrait on a train. The elderly lady went on to say that she loved the picture painted by the lady at the station so much more than the portrait she had lost.
Not only was I inspired by the willingness of this amazing artist to make the most of the situation, I felt honoured and enriched by the experience. Seeds of love and respect were planted on a railway platform that day as strangers laughed and shared stories. No one noticed the delay rather we all focused on enjoying the moment.
When you plant seeds of love, it’s you that blossoms. ~ Ma Jay Sati Bhagauati
At times we may feel lost and disconnected. Like a cloud floating endlessly across an expansive sky. So how do we come back into the moment, into alignment?
My practice if I wish to change my sense of disconnection is to shift my focus outside myself. Focusing on bringing light to the self doubt that is clouding my soul.
Going for a walk immediately shifts my focus to the universal energy of the natural world.There is a special place I visit to make peace with what is. One such morning, sitting on a sandstone ledge, surrounded by bright yellow Grevillea flowers I stilled my mind to release what was troubling me. At the time as a new writer, my confidence and self belief often slipped away, like the tide retreating at the water’s edge. Seeing myself as a real Author although I had received wonderful reviews for my book http://triumphofjoy.com/ was a real challenge. Embracing others kind words about my writing meant stepping into a new reality.
As I contemplated what writing meant to me, I noticed a bee had landed on a nearby Grevillea flower. As I watched the bee I noticed the tiny creature conducted its business without any uncertainty. I thought to myself ~a bee knows how to be a bee. This tiny bee is being of service to the world. Not only is pollen food for the bee, but some of the pollen drops in flight, which allows cross pollination to take place, benefiting both the plant and the insect. This process of sharing is known as .Symbiosis
In that instance my spirits rose as I realised as a writer my words are the sweet nectar of my soul. The tiny bee was showing me just as it sourced nectar for itself it also benefited others. Something I was aching to … be of service.That morning I refocused on the healing power I find in words and how they may benefit others.
I thanked the little bee for enabling me to realise that as a writer words are the nectar of my soul.
Everyone On Earth Has a Treasure That Awaits Him. ~ Paulo Coelho.
How do you feel about this quote? Do you believe you have a gift within you that you would love to nurture and possibly share with the world? Can you feel the power of that gift. What is the difference between believing and knowing? Not only do I believe these words to be true, but I know them to be true for myself because I have embraced my fear of both writing and public speaking. Overcoming those fears has enabled me to grow in more ways than I could ever have imagined. In my experience believing is a question of trusting; of accepting, of having faith, whereas knowing is experiencing and being cognisant with the treasure within.
It is often when we are taken to the depths of despair that we discover a wellspring of understanding about who we are. That understanding may come from simply knowing ourselves more fully. It may begin with hope ! When we are without hope we are not in alignment with our inner treasure. Our understanding may also come from knowing what we don’t want in our life. When we define what no longer serves us, we become more sensitive to life experiences and can adjust our attitude to ways that serves the self in a positive way.
Little by little as we let go of self judgment and become more aware of others, that inner treasure begins to pulsate as the living promise we really are.